Friday, November 20, 2009 7:01 AM
Yesterday was the "best" day of my life.
Our class finished at 11.30am with the test so I went home first to rest before my practicals at 2pm. Practicals was a bit boring, as usual. When I wasn't in the ambulance, I was just sitting around waiting to be called into the ambulance. o.O
And even being in the ambulance isn't that great because all the cool cases goes to the "REANIMATION" ambulance and I'm left with cases of not so acute appendicitis, INFLUENZA and the occasional pancreatitis. Influenza??? My god, why are these people so lazy to just drive to the clinic or hospital themselves? I'll never understand Russian system. Their intoxication wasn't even severe, I'd say they were mild-moderate at most.
And when my shift was over, I sat in the room that Irina Iosinovna told me to sit in, with Zakiah. Then these two giantess came in and started yelling at us.
Giantess A: What are you doing sitting on my bed like that?
Zakiah: Sorry.
Giantess A: Yeah, okay.
We rolled eyes at each other and sat at another bed. Giantess B is still outside at this point. After some minutes, she came in too.
Giantess B : What the f*** are these girls doing here? Who are they anyway?
Giantess A: Foreigners.
Giantess B : Foreigners shouldn't be here. Why are they here. Girls, go wait outside. Our things are all inside the room, money, bag, clothes. Who knows what will happen to them? Go out.
Giantess A : Go out! Go OUt!
SO we left and waited outside, fuming. Like, I wanted to steal her stuff. HeLLo, awak punya handphone pun from zaman bile?? Duit? I think my allowance is more than their pay! Doctors kat russia get paid very little, so why would I want to take her money?? PERASAN lebih.
Upon reaching home, another wonderful surprise!
A huge stinky loud party. I was so close to losing it and just telling them off to shut up. Honestly, you guys are not the only people on this floor. I'd prefer not to have the corridors smell like stinky stale beer or whatever it was they were drinking. And nak pegi club tu pegi je la, why you HAVE to be so freaking loud and yell along the corridor???? Oh yeah, because you're STUPID.
So in the end, I just have one curse to say.......
I hope they all go pengsan by the roadside. ALL of them. The Medical Assistants who were b****es in disguise and the inconsiderate boys and girls from my floor...
Our class finished at 11.30am with the test so I went home first to rest before my practicals at 2pm. Practicals was a bit boring, as usual. When I wasn't in the ambulance, I was just sitting around waiting to be called into the ambulance. o.O
And even being in the ambulance isn't that great because all the cool cases goes to the "REANIMATION" ambulance and I'm left with cases of not so acute appendicitis, INFLUENZA and the occasional pancreatitis. Influenza??? My god, why are these people so lazy to just drive to the clinic or hospital themselves? I'll never understand Russian system. Their intoxication wasn't even severe, I'd say they were mild-moderate at most.
And when my shift was over, I sat in the room that Irina Iosinovna told me to sit in, with Zakiah. Then these two giantess came in and started yelling at us.
Giantess A: What are you doing sitting on my bed like that?
Zakiah: Sorry.
Giantess A: Yeah, okay.
We rolled eyes at each other and sat at another bed. Giantess B is still outside at this point. After some minutes, she came in too.
Giantess B : What the f*** are these girls doing here? Who are they anyway?
Giantess A: Foreigners.
Giantess B : Foreigners shouldn't be here. Why are they here. Girls, go wait outside. Our things are all inside the room, money, bag, clothes. Who knows what will happen to them? Go out.
Giantess A : Go out! Go OUt!
SO we left and waited outside, fuming. Like, I wanted to steal her stuff. HeLLo, awak punya handphone pun from zaman bile?? Duit? I think my allowance is more than their pay! Doctors kat russia get paid very little, so why would I want to take her money?? PERASAN lebih.
Upon reaching home, another wonderful surprise!
A huge stinky loud party. I was so close to losing it and just telling them off to shut up. Honestly, you guys are not the only people on this floor. I'd prefer not to have the corridors smell like stinky stale beer or whatever it was they were drinking. And nak pegi club tu pegi je la, why you HAVE to be so freaking loud and yell along the corridor???? Oh yeah, because you're STUPID.
So in the end, I just have one curse to say.......
I hope they all go pengsan by the roadside. ALL of them. The Medical Assistants who were b****es in disguise and the inconsiderate boys and girls from my floor...
Sunday, November 15, 2009 5:09 PM
Wow, what a hectic week it's been for me!
*snickers*
OK, who am I kidding? It's been relaxing as hell with psychiatric rotation and paediatrics surgery. They say that the professor for PS is the best but like every other cycle in the past, Group F is always blessed with the not-so-fun teacher. :(
Nevertheless, I find the rotation quite relaxing but yet, interesting. I've yet to watch a surgery this time but I'm quite happy for that because I hate. No, LOATHE surgery. I simply abhor it. I can't even explain why. I personally think that surgeons are a little too scalpel-happy. I prefer internal medicine to surgical diseases. Surgical rotations are a complete chore, all that standing around the OT watching an operation (or rather, the hands and the back of the surgeon performing them) for hours on end with that awful mask on that I can't even breathe and I'm always in fear that I'd end up hyperventilating and fainting in the OT.
I just hate surgery. Surgery can go and flush itself down the toilet like 20 times. Hate. Hate hate hate.
I've been doing nothing productive this month. I attempted to read ECG made easy and Dubin's Rapid EKG interpretation and I found that Dubin's book triumphs over Hamptons hands down. Dubin's book could totally throw eggs on Hampton's book's prom dress while driving by in a limo, that's how cool it is. Maybe some people would get thrown off by the somewhat less sombre method of presentation of Dubin's EKG book but I find that very charming and a lot more understandable than a bunch of stiff gibberish that tries to explain complex mechanisms in an even more complex way. Granted, Hampton probably has more examples of ecgs. In any case, to each his own.
Paediatrics examination is looming ahead too and it's not looking too good for me. I've been completely unfocused as of late and there's just been too many things I've had to do that I've been falling behind on my studies. I hope I'd be able to make the deadline and be awesome on the exam day as I've imagined in my head. lol.
In a more serious note, I would like to say this :
Until next time, my furry friends. Adios.
*snickers*
OK, who am I kidding? It's been relaxing as hell with psychiatric rotation and paediatrics surgery. They say that the professor for PS is the best but like every other cycle in the past, Group F is always blessed with the not-so-fun teacher. :(
Nevertheless, I find the rotation quite relaxing but yet, interesting. I've yet to watch a surgery this time but I'm quite happy for that because I hate. No, LOATHE surgery. I simply abhor it. I can't even explain why. I personally think that surgeons are a little too scalpel-happy. I prefer internal medicine to surgical diseases. Surgical rotations are a complete chore, all that standing around the OT watching an operation (or rather, the hands and the back of the surgeon performing them) for hours on end with that awful mask on that I can't even breathe and I'm always in fear that I'd end up hyperventilating and fainting in the OT.
I just hate surgery. Surgery can go and flush itself down the toilet like 20 times. Hate. Hate hate hate.
I've been doing nothing productive this month. I attempted to read ECG made easy and Dubin's Rapid EKG interpretation and I found that Dubin's book triumphs over Hamptons hands down. Dubin's book could totally throw eggs on Hampton's book's prom dress while driving by in a limo, that's how cool it is. Maybe some people would get thrown off by the somewhat less sombre method of presentation of Dubin's EKG book but I find that very charming and a lot more understandable than a bunch of stiff gibberish that tries to explain complex mechanisms in an even more complex way. Granted, Hampton probably has more examples of ecgs. In any case, to each his own.
Paediatrics examination is looming ahead too and it's not looking too good for me. I've been completely unfocused as of late and there's just been too many things I've had to do that I've been falling behind on my studies. I hope I'd be able to make the deadline and be awesome on the exam day as I've imagined in my head. lol.
In a more serious note, I would like to say this :
What time are we upon and where do I belong?Let's leave it at that, shall we? I would like to say more but I don't think its polite to discuss private thoughts and matters on the world wide web for people to read. Well, that and I don't want to worry the 2 readers I have. Haha. Suffice to say that I'm pondering on my future. :)
Until next time, my furry friends. Adios.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009 5:46 PM
Its a bit early for new year's resolutions but this is a personal one for me and there's only one point in it.
1. Be the best medical student you can be, strive to know
and absorb as much as you possibly can for the good of patients who
will be in your care 1.5 years from now. :)
My biggest mistake :
I am a crowd "follower". I tend to study when I see others study and relax when I see others relax. This will end today. I also tend to be a "stress junkie". I just learn better under stress, especially during exams but every medical student can attest to what a nerve wrecking ordeal exams are. I get a minimum of one panic attack every exam season, regardless of whether I've finished reviewing the material or not but I figure, if I study consistently, exams will be a breeze. Right?
So I'm not going to waste any more time. Everything starts now.
Happy studying.
Labels: 5th year, medical school stuff
Monday, November 2, 2009 8:18 PM
These past few days, my head has been ringing with this particular song lyric stuck inside it :
"I wanna do it with Madonna"
Don't get me wrong. I totally don't want to do it with Madonna. That's just wrong. and icky. and sick. on soooo many different levels, I could totally build a revolving staircase.
I just remembered that song! And i used to love that song. :) And Google is a wonderful invention so here's the link so that you guys, my non-existent blog readers, could enjoy it too.
Take it with a pinch of salt yeah, and just laugh off the vulgarity. Afterall, its all about a guy who wants to do it with Madonna.
It reminded me of the days when I was a carefree student, going out to the movies on weekends and giggling with my girlfriends about my latest crush. *sigh* I miss those days and even though back then I said I couldn't wait to get out of school, right now I'd do anything to go back.
I miss my Mum. I honestly regret that I never spent enough time with her when I was in high school but that was partly because she was busy as a bee working at MPM. And I miss waiting for my Dad at the jejantas across Jalan Ampang for him to pick me up in his Proton Perdana (back then).
I just wish I could stop growing up so fast. Its like, sometimes I wake up and I want to cry because I can't the world to stop for me. I feel like I've always did. I'm not ready to be a grown up and most of all, to be responsible for lives other than my own. But nothing's going to stop time...afterall, the show must go on eh?
Sunday, October 25, 2009 6:09 PM
I've lost it for real! I can't seem to find inspiration or motivation ANYWHERE! The whole day I was like a zombie trying to study but can't - I keep returning to FB or emailing or texting. I have a severe concentration deficit.
I'm having 2 days off from Prof Panova for a "breakie" with Dr. Fedaev, which many of us consider very relaxing! Well, for starters he can't speak English!
I was hoping to visit my other patient soon though, before he's discharged! I suspect that he's had Silent MI, a variant of Myocardial Infarction (Heart Attack) that comes without pain usually in elderly diabetics. I was stumped by his diagnosis at first, as I forgot about Silent MI, and it hit me like a train wreck at 9pm that night. I hope I get to take a look at his ECGs soon.
I should probably get back to mock-studying now. Sigh. I need my mojo, bad.
I'm having 2 days off from Prof Panova for a "breakie" with Dr. Fedaev, which many of us consider very relaxing! Well, for starters he can't speak English!
I was hoping to visit my other patient soon though, before he's discharged! I suspect that he's had Silent MI, a variant of Myocardial Infarction (Heart Attack) that comes without pain usually in elderly diabetics. I was stumped by his diagnosis at first, as I forgot about Silent MI, and it hit me like a train wreck at 9pm that night. I hope I get to take a look at his ECGs soon.
I should probably get back to mock-studying now. Sigh. I need my mojo, bad.
Labels: 5th year, internal medicine, medical school stuff
Monday, October 19, 2009 8:16 PM
And so begins the /real/ challenge of med school.
Haha. Ok, not really. Paediatrics was a hell of a rotation but now I'm having Internal Medicine for a short 8 days. Due to the lovely people at the deans office, our schedule got severely mixed up and instead of having 12 days of Paediatrics, it was written as 20 days instead...and so, our Internal Med rotation is divided in two!
My attending is none other than the ever so scary Elena Ivanovna Panova - the cardiogod herself! She's really intimidating but understanding too. She says that its okay if we forget some things now and again as long as we remember to remember it in the future. :p Not in those exact words - I paraphrased. Somehow I got the feeling that she was an awesome student and junior doctor and I wonder if its due to talent (i.e. super duper genius) or hardwork. If all the awesome doctors are super duper geniuses, then I'd say the field is definitely not for me.
I have a classic Type A personality, a "stress junkie" as some would say. I want to be the best, no, actually I /have/ to be the best. But before you write me off as being a kiasu loser, I'd like to defend myself and say that my personal definition of being 'the best' is different! I have to be the best version of myself in order for me to even think straight. Like when I was studying for the Paediatrics test, I couldn't accept myself if I hadn't known every single thing about those diseases. Sometimes I feel so stressed just trying to live up to my own expectations of myself! Yeah, that's it. I stress myself out everyday trying to live up to my own expectations - I HAVE to know these answers, I HAVE to know this drug doses because I feel like I can't live with myself if I don't. Another way to put it is I have quite the low self-esteem. It sounds really sad doesn't it? But even though I'm tired at the end of the day, the alternative to this is even worse...complete breakdown! I will NEVER again want to feel the way I felt during my 3rd year exams - helpless and just a plain wreck!
I really envy people who are born with the talent or capability to simply get it. Some people here don't have to study even half as hard as I do (and I don't even study THAT much) and they still get all As. *sigh* But what I lack in talent, I have to make up in spirit and hardwork! Insyaallah, I'll be a better student in the future.
Haha. Ok, not really. Paediatrics was a hell of a rotation but now I'm having Internal Medicine for a short 8 days. Due to the lovely people at the deans office, our schedule got severely mixed up and instead of having 12 days of Paediatrics, it was written as 20 days instead...and so, our Internal Med rotation is divided in two!
My attending is none other than the ever so scary Elena Ivanovna Panova - the cardiogod herself! She's really intimidating but understanding too. She says that its okay if we forget some things now and again as long as we remember to remember it in the future. :p Not in those exact words - I paraphrased. Somehow I got the feeling that she was an awesome student and junior doctor and I wonder if its due to talent (i.e. super duper genius) or hardwork. If all the awesome doctors are super duper geniuses, then I'd say the field is definitely not for me.
I have a classic Type A personality, a "stress junkie" as some would say. I want to be the best, no, actually I /have/ to be the best. But before you write me off as being a kiasu loser, I'd like to defend myself and say that my personal definition of being 'the best' is different! I have to be the best version of myself in order for me to even think straight. Like when I was studying for the Paediatrics test, I couldn't accept myself if I hadn't known every single thing about those diseases. Sometimes I feel so stressed just trying to live up to my own expectations of myself! Yeah, that's it. I stress myself out everyday trying to live up to my own expectations - I HAVE to know these answers, I HAVE to know this drug doses because I feel like I can't live with myself if I don't. Another way to put it is I have quite the low self-esteem. It sounds really sad doesn't it? But even though I'm tired at the end of the day, the alternative to this is even worse...complete breakdown! I will NEVER again want to feel the way I felt during my 3rd year exams - helpless and just a plain wreck!
I really envy people who are born with the talent or capability to simply get it. Some people here don't have to study even half as hard as I do (and I don't even study THAT much) and they still get all As. *sigh* But what I lack in talent, I have to make up in spirit and hardwork! Insyaallah, I'll be a better student in the future.
Labels: 5th year, medical school stuff
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 10:37 AM
You think you know, but you have NO idea.
Let's just say I know people better now.
Trust is a tricky thing. It kind of hurts that people I thought were my friends don't actually trust me. Maybe its my fault. Not going to dwell on it though. Its a holiday today and I'm going to have fun!
Let's just say I know people better now.
Trust is a tricky thing. It kind of hurts that people I thought were my friends don't actually trust me. Maybe its my fault. Not going to dwell on it though. Its a holiday today and I'm going to have fun!
Labels: emo
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